ALHAMDULLILLAH...ALL'S WELL, ENDS WELL

It has been a pretty busy and stressful week both in office and at home. Lack of rest and sleep, lots to do.


With trainings and events to be arranged plus annual appraisal analysis and two proposal papers to prepare, I was running here and there to make sure everything were settled by Friday. Things were equally hectic at home; kenduri doa selamat for my parents' haj trip and cousin E's wedding were scheduled during the same week. Both of these events were important as I'm the only 'orang harapan' to coordinate the kenduri and considering that E's family has always been a great help during my family's functions, it only fair if i offer the same to them.

Everything went well and I was glad that the week ended with good news.

A good news which brings hope to be closer to my loved ones. Nothing confirmed yet, but i'll surely keep my fingers crossed.

The other news was really unexpected. I was stunned and didn't know how to react when i got to know about it. For me it's all due to responsibilities and doing it sincerely. Never thought they will, but it feels good to be appreciated. It just worth all the headaches, sacrifices and efforts. Whatever it is, it won't happen without the support from others.

Alhamdullilah.

I'm grateful to Him for the good things he had granted.

And of course I'm thankful to him too..thank you.

SCARS

I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much
My scars remind me that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel


Drunk and I'm feeling down
And I just wanna be alone
I'm pissed cause you came around
Why don't you just go home
Cause you channel all your pain
And I can't help you fix yourself
Your making me insane
All I can say is


I tried to help you once
A kiss will only vise
I saw you going down
But you never realized
That your drowning in the water
So I offered you my hand
Compassions in my nature
Tonight is our last dance


I'm drunk and I'm feeling down
And I just wanna be alone
You shouldn't ever came around
Why don't you just go home?
Cause your drowning in the water
And I tried to grab your hand
And I left my heart open
But you didn't understand
But you didn't understand
You fix yourself


I can't help you fix yourself
But at least I can say I tried
I'm sorry but I gotta move on with my own life
I can't help you fix yourself
But at least I can say I tried
I'm sorry but I gotta move on with my own life

HARIZ, MY FAVORITE MODEL

SAY CHEESE!!

Thanks to Riz, i finally bought a digicam! Dah lama nak beli tapi tak beli-beli jugak. Kononnya nak buat research dulu, biasalah barang mcm ni takkan nak main terjah beli jek. Lagipun, masa tu i don't really know what to look for when buying a digicam. Disebabkan tak penting sangat, so i keep putting it off sampai la ari ni. Semuanya pasal nak ambik gambar Riz. Before this asyik guna camera PDA, sampai memory PDA aku tu penuh pun bukan sebab banyak save dokumen kerja, tapi sebab dok store gambar-gambar dia jek. So far, i'm happy with this purchase. Most of the features and functions i want ada dalam this camera. For a beginner like me, kira ok la tu. Yang penting I can take lots and lots of Riz's pictures!

RADJA - RIVAL BARU PETERPAN?

Kecoh pasal Radja - kononnya dah jadi band yang paling popular kat Indonesia sekarang. Hmm..betul ke? Takkan dah ada band yang boleh mencabar band favorite aku, Peterpan? Kalau betul, maybe tak lama lagi sambutan Radja kat Malaysia pun sama kot. Oleh kerana nak mengetest kesahihannya, aku beli CD Radja. Tak dinafikan ada tracks yang best macam Jujur, Tulus and Takkan Melupakanmu; sekali dengar terus suka and ada jugak yang kena dengar few times baru terlintas "best jugak lagu ni".

Yang best about this band, their songs mostly are upbeat and energetic, ones we can wake and start our day with. Tulus, Jujur and Takkan Melupakanmu are highly recommended. Lagu-lagu lain yang best and boleh hilangkan ngantuk, cuba dengar lagu Cinderella, Butuh Waktu, Ini Aku Adanya, Tetaplah Menjadi Milikku, Lepas Masa Laluku.

Buat masa Peterpan is still my no 1 but Radja dah turunkan Padi and Dewa satu step kebawah dan menyepak keluar terus S07 dari list Favorite Indonesian Band aku. Sama ada Radja akan jadi band no 1 dalam list favorite aku,wallahuaklam. Kita tunggu dan lihat jelah...

IT'S ALL COMING BACK TO ME...

Arggh!! Rasa mcm baru je kena pulun dengan tsunami. Semuanya gara gara tak sengaja, kenapa la aku boleh ke situ? And kenapa la pulak dia boleh bagi message mcm tu? Dah bertahun-tahun semuanya over tapi benda-benda yang ada kaitan dengan dia still boleh menjejaskan proses homeostasis badan aku. I feel uneasy, takleh focus and beat jantung aku still laju mcm beat lagu techno bila nampak dia. Jangan kata nampak dia, dengar nama dia pun dah boleh buat aku menggelabah. Kadang-kadang aku rasa betapa tak munasahnya aku ni..Ada sekali tu, 3 mlm aku takleh tdo sebab terserempak dengan dia lepas berkurun we all tak jumpa. Tapi tu lain la, masa tu aku still tak get over dia lagi.


Cuma aku jadi confuse & uncomfortable pulak dengan kes ari ni. Pelik! I 'm sure I no longer have the same the feeling I used to feel before, but why am I still reacting this way? Kenapa eh? Takkan aku still ada ati kat dia lagi. Ish! Mungkin tidak...Agaknye aku ni tergezut + control excited kot sebab nampak dia.


Nasib baik benda ni tak jadi semalam, alamatnye tak siaple proposal paper aku tu. Tapi, kalau aku busy takkan le aku ada masa nak ke tempat 'accident' tu. Terflash back kejap cerita masa muda-muda dulu. Haha!! ;)


Anyway, bagus gak jadik macam ni, at least aku tau dia OK. Seikhlasnya aku happy bila dapat tau yang dia happy and dah berjaya dengan career dia. Aku sebenarnya patut berterima kasih gak kat dia. Disebabkan apa yang jadik between aku and dia ni, macam-macam benda yang aku kena go through and it's not something which I hope to experience again. Yang bagusnya, banyak benda positive yang aku belajar dari pengalaman tu. Bermula dari rasa taknak kalah n nak buktikan kat dia yang aku pun boleh, it has inspired me to improve myself and in the end semuanya bertukar jadi sebahagian dari diri aku. Kalau tak kerana semua tu, aku pun tak tau kat mana aku sekarang.


Untuk orang ni {walaupun aku rasa tak mungkin dia akan baca blog aku ni} - I sincerely wish you happiness in life. You're still one of the best people i've ever met. Thanks for inspiring me to be what am I today. Though we have different life's direction now, you have left a deep imprint in my heart and i know i shall never forget how much you have touched my life .

SAMPAI - KRU

Sayang..
Apa yang ku katakan
Apa yang ku rasakan
Belum pernah dialami
Demimu segala ku kurniakan
Susah ku senangkan
Apa sahaja dipenuhi
Di hati

Dan masih lagi engkau bertanya
Sejauh manakah cinta
Penjelasan ku sebenar-benarnya

Sampai
tubuh tak bernyawa
Sampai
ku ke pangkuannya
Biar jasad tak dilihat zahir
Cintaku tetapkan hadir
Andai dikurnia syurga
kan ku tunggu di luarnya
jika ditanya mengapa ?
Jawapan ku menunggu..
Kau SAMPAI dahulu..


Mudahnya sekadar bermadah
Hingga kau meragui
Keikhlasan sanubari
Sedangkan racun pun kan ku telan
Andai kau menyatakan ia madu kepadaku
Dan masih lagi kau bertanya
Sedalam manakah cinta ?

Lafaz ikrarku buat selamanya...

Katakan sayang..
bagaimanakah harus ku hidup.. ?
tanpa dirimu
Sedangkan separuhnya di jiwaku
bersamamu...

Sampai tubuh tak bernyawa
SAMPAI ku kepangkuannya
Biar jasad tak dilihat zahir..
Cintaku tetapkan hadir...

Andai dikurnia syurga..
Kan ku tunggu di luarnya
Jika ditanya mengapa
Kau sampai padaku

My current favorite track from KRU..LAYAN!!!