SEMBANG AL-NGARUTS

Seminggu sejak aku implement procedure baru yang En Otai kena buat 2 kali sehari, dia tak penah datang awal or ada kat opis. Meaning, daily checklist yang dia kena isi before 8.45am tu memang orang lain yang kena cover.

Isnin

Emergency Leave (Reason: Sedara kawin. Tak munasabah betul sedara nak kawin tak tau date awal2)

Selasa

Masuk lambat sebab amik ubat kat hospital

Rabu

MC

Khamis & Jumaat

Compassionate Leave (kakak mati)

Ari ni aku memang panas ati betul! Sampai bila tah orang lain nak menjawab keje dia yang tak semenggah tu. tensen! tensen!

Sat tadi aku nak tergelak tengok meja Rahman berkecah maut. HaH! Amek kau! Selama ni meja aku & Tina je yang serabai dot dot..sekarang bila dah buat task reshuffle baru tau, lagi2 bila otai takde, dia lak kena memangku keje En. Otai yang budiman.


LET IT OUT..YEAH!!

Tak sabar rasanye nak tunggu weekend. Apsal tah minggu ni macam minggu kepala otak aku berasap.

Dapat melalak kat redbox best gak.

Tak pun tengok movie antu yang tengah bersepah kat panggung sekarang ni.
Waktu orang menjerit sakan time suspen tu aku join la sekaki. Orang jerit seram, aku plak jerit lepas geram...

CARIK KEJE BARU?!!

Tadi masa scan keje2 yang suitable untuk Cik Nanie, sempat gak curi2 pandang kot-kot ade yang sesuai untuk aku. Rasa macam nak berhijrah ke Penang plak lepas ni. Kalau Tina jadik pindah, ikut dia merantau pi Lahat Datu pun cara gak. Ntah la, gile keharuk ape ntah aku minggu ni. Tak ingat aku masih dalam bond lagi. Tapi kalau offer bagus, bayar jelah dari maintain stuck kat underground tunnel ni.

Anyway, lately ada macam-macam yang berenang dalam otak aku. Mimpi pun ngarut2 jek. Ade ke mimpi katak masuk dalam PDA pastu rupanye katak tu adalah seekor cicak yang berkulit mcm buaya. This weird animal INSIDE MY PDA! logik tak logik la...Eh, sat ni aku baru terpikir. Aku rasa mimpi ni nak bagitau something yang aku dah tau. That I'm not what exactly as people sees me. There's this other side of me. Ye la tu kot. Orang tengok aku macam katak tapi aku sebenarnya adalah cicak bertopengkan kulit buaya. Muahahah!

Arghh...ape nak kisah. bukan ke semua ni dah terbiasa. I'm experiencing one of the year's low down cranky days caused by my so-called career. Nanti-nanti ok balik kot. Masa tu semangat melambung2, pastu turun skit n naik balik. Sebijik macam pasaran saham.

Talking about saham, orang2 kat opis tengah sibuk join this investment scheme. Macam best je return dia, teringin gak nak join. Tapi each time diajak dengar maleh pulak nak gi. Seriously, the return is damn attractive weh. (Aci tak kalau blasah je masuk tapi skip bab-bab dengar briefing ni?)

KES JEJAK KASIH

Oh ye, ari tu aku jumpa balik kawan lama. Lama dah aku carik mamat ni. Sejak dia break dengan member aku, terus ilang menyepi.

Last skali aku jumpa tahun 2002 masa tu siap banyak 'cover' lagi sampai mama & ayah ingat dia dah nak kawen n soh aku ikut jejak langkah dia.

Tau tau tahun ni aku boleh terjumpa balik dengan dia. Itu pun by accident. Dekat je rupanye ingatkan dah merantau ke Italy ke Maghribi ke. Yang aku ni puas la mencari bagai nak giler. Memang tak pass lagi nak jadik P.I kalau camni, nak carik sorang kawan yang ilang pun makan masa bertahun tak jumpa. Kalau buat bisnes penyiasat persendirian sure bungkus punye.

Nak dijadikan filem, rupanye we all puas cari each other, tapi camne nak jumpa memasing tukar nombor baru. Anyway, aku hepi gak ar jumpa dia ni balik. At least bole menambahkan list 'yang terlibat' from side aku nanti...

Sampai sekarang aku still memikir nak buat kat mana..tapi yang penting kena pilih sape undangannye dulu. So far, aku punye memang ciput abis. Dapat 3,4 orang dari sini pun kira okla. Ahh, tu sume lama lagi storynye. Ape pun tak arrange.

Handle one thing at a time first. Yang penting nak gi Bali dulu. Dapat buat aromatheraphy massage..mesti best giler!

Bila la dapat gi ni..

Nak gi Bali Nak gi Bali Nak gi Bali Nak gi Bali Nak gi Bali ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ ...................

IMPIAN YANG GILER

Giler ke aku kalau tahun ni aku nak:



Beli laptop

bajet:RM3500



Beli Digital SLR camera

bajet: RM4000



Beli PDA baru (my dream DOPOD 818)

bajet:RM2100



Pi trip ke bali

bajet:RM3000



Pi trip ke Kuching

bajet:RM2000



Pasang sport rim kat B-Tam

bajet:RM1500



Confirm aku memang giler!!! RM16100!!

Mana nak korek dalam setahun!! Muahahaha!!

LIPS OF AN ANGEL - HINDER

Lagu ni my current fav...best!

Honey why you calling me so late?
It's kinda hard to talk right now.
Honey why are you crying?
Is everything okay?
I gotta whisper 'cause I can't be too loud

Well, my girl's in the next room
Sometimes I wish she was you
I guess we never really moved on
It's really good to hear your voice say my name
It sounds so sweet
Coming from the lips of an angel
Hearing those words it makes me weak
And I never wanna say goodbye
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel

It's funny that you're calling me tonight
And, yes, I've dreamt of you too
And does he know you're talking to me
Will it start a fight
No I don't think she has a clue

Well my girl's in the next room
Sometimes I wish she was you
I guess we never really moved on
It's really good to hear your voice say my name
It sounds so sweet
Coming from the lips of an angel
Hearing those words it makes me weak
And I never wanna say goodbye
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel

It's really good to hear your voice say my name
It sounds so sweet
Coming from the lips of an angel
Hearing those words it makes me weak
And I never wanna say goodbye
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel
And I never wanna say goodbye
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel

Honey why you calling me so late?

TENTANG KERJA

Lately ni nak update pun takde idea.

Dah dekat sebulan 2007 ni so far life ok ok je. Better than 2006, alhamdulilah. Kenapa this year setakat ni aku rasa better dari tahun lepas? Aku pun heran gak sebenarnye. Kalau ikutkan sama je kadar huru hara & stress tu. Penyumbang utama stress aku ape lagi kalau tak benda2 kat opis ni & diikuti dengan life kat luar opis. Tapi bila aku pikir2 balik, rasanye mungkin sekarang life aku kat luar opis lebih aman & lebih tenang. Tinggal nak control jiwa tang bab bab kat opis ni jelah.

Kat opis awal-awal tahun ni biasalah, huru hara skit especially lepas dapat surat increment sume tu. Pening betul nak melayan. Ada la segelintir yang tak puas ati. Yang berpangkat atas-atas dok komplen pada Pn. Shila & yang berpangkat bawah-bawah dok komplen pada aku. Yang dok komplen kat belakang sesama sendiri pun sure ramai rasanye.

Yang peliknya (walaupun aku sebenarnya tak pelik pun), mereka-mereka yang jumpa aku nak meluahkan rasa tak puas ni kebanyakannnya (bukan semua) staff yang bermasalah. Diaorang kata Head diaorang ni berdendam dengan diaorang la, dah buat keje macam nak mampus tapi increment sikit la, bla bla bla..Tapi untuk orang-orang ni, tak payah la nak klentong aku. Dah korang yang tak buat keje ikut arahan camne nakla Head korang nak rekemen rating bagus. In fact, masa my daily walkabout round pun, memang selalu nampak muka-muka bermasalah ni buat masalah. And kerana diaorang ni gak la aku selalu kena buat rondaan mengejut walaupun masa weekend.

Tahun ni kira tough gak le. Misi utama: Nak mengorganize semula servis department aku & upgrade kepala otak orang-orangnye. Cabaran yang dah tersedia nak handle staff otai kat department aku yang sorang ni. But this year I'm determine to do it, takkan pasal kelemauan dia semua orang kena tempias. Keje dah la slow, berkira pulak tu, banyak excuse, uncooperative, banyak sgt attend personal issue waktu kerja. Bila waktu appraisal melenting sebab dapat teruk. Bukan aku saje nak dengki ke ape tapi kena fair la dengan yang lain. Dah orang lain kena cover keje dia, takkan aku nak bagi dia rating 5 bintang pulak. Dahle tu, dok hasut staff sana sini biar tak puas ati dengan company. Ade ke patut. Ye la aku pun kadang2 tak puas ati gak dengan company, ada masa nyampah dengan top management, tapi aku sedar status aku sebagai staff HR & peranan staff HR ni nak bridge the gap between employee-employer bukan makin keruhkan keadaan.

En. Otai ni pulak jumpa dengan Pn. Shila sebab tak puas ati dengan aku. Nak ngadu yang kononnya aku bagi rating tak fair, tapi muahahaha (ketawa setan) dia kena bambu balik. Sampai in the end Pn. Shila soh dia mintak maaf dengan aku. Nasib baik la engkau nak retire tahun ni En. Otai. Tapi sebenarnye kalau engkau ada ke takde pun sama gak. Buat penat je aku buat Job Description untuk kau tapi keje kau orang lain yang buat. Biarla staff bawah aku tak ramai tapi semua bole buat keje daripada ade ramai tapi setakat jadi perhiasaan & menambahkan overhead cost aje.

Dulu time exBOS memang dia lepas tangan abis. I got to know the good news first and I have to tell the bad news. Semua orang suka nak sampaikan berita baik. In fact, semua orang nak jadi the first one to tell someone the good news. Tapi bila time bad news semua mengelak. Lagi-lagi keje kat HR ni, bila strict skit orang dah menyampah. Salah approach staff nanti staff rasa demotivated la, staff rasa company tak suka dia la..etc etc. Kalau lenient pulak, management bising. Nanti ade isu timbul, HR jugak disalahkan.

Under Pn. Shila aku rasa macam ok skit. At least she is supportive and we both want this department to perform. Buat masa ni aku confident staff aku yang lain (excluding En. Otai) boleh ditrain & boleh dipakai.

HAPPY NEW YEAR

It's new year again!

Macam baru je buat entry pasal tahun baru 2006.

Ayah keep asking me what's my 2007 resolution...and just like last year, i have none. It's still the same motto for me 'DO WHAT I HAVE TO DO'

How was my 2006?

Personal
Hmm, it began with quite unpleasant start due to my foolishness. Spent nearly 3/4 of the year to make everything work and crushed my heart and spirit along the way until i reluctantly forced myself to stop trying. Susah woo..sungguh complicated sekali kisahnya (tapi sorry ar aku maleh nak citer) and 2006 will leave me with painful mark because of this.

And seriously life is so ironic. (teringat lagu 'Ironic' by Alanis Morissette). After months of blind waiting and hoping, my wish came true just a few days after i've commit myself to something else. (teringat plak kat lirik lagu Michael learn to Rock yang ada "bla bla bla 25 minutes too late" tu hahah). Pastu ape lagi, eden pun dalam dilemma la. I feel really guilty for not waiting a little bit longer and torn between two choices (teringat kat lagu Demi Waktu by Ungu pulak..); whether to stick to something I have known for quite sometime and let myself experience the roller coaster ride form hell again or give a chance to the unknown. Ikut ati nak dua-dua tapi, orang tua ajar tak boleh tamak..pendidikan moral pun sama..so in the end after so much of eye opening incidents, aku pilih option yang kedua. And I never regret it till this day.

There must be some reasons why Allah planned it this way. I believe that because all these while the first option never give me anything but heartache. It just me who wanna stick to this broken dream thus hanging on to it though there's a better option in front of me.

Office / Work
Office life became more stressful especially after Bos resigned. But then, i like working under Pn. Shila. There's only me, Tina and Ainie left, now that Jen and June has resigned. And who knows among the 3 stooges there will be one who will be leaving soon. More and more people are leaving and I dont know what i'm doing here. Oh, I forgot that i've been handcuffed for two years.

Anyway, I'm glad that I've managed to accomplished most of my plans last year. The only difficult thing to do as much as i try is to wake up and go to bed early (confirm! i'm a nocturnal animal!).

The unexpected
I've start my own move.
The house and the new car

The new life?

The expected
More responsibilities
More expectations from those around me.

Selingan:

Carn, Selamat Pengantin Baru..You look gorgeous in that wedding dress of yours.

To someone, thank you for bringing rainbow in my grayscale world. Thanks for all the sweet things you have done for me.

To A, i'm sorry it has to end this way. For me, love is about transparency and sincerity. To love somebody is to really know that somebody. We can't sit & simply wait for things to happen bcos it need both parties serious effort to make it work.

OK, Back to business..

Overall, I'm glad that 2006 finally ended. At least it ended well for me. I hope 2007 will be better for everyone. Next entry aje la citer pasal plan 2007, itu pun kalau aku rajin. Anyway,

Happy 2007 guys!