AMARANTINE - ENYA

You know when you gave your love away
It opens your heart, everything is new
And you know time will always find a way
To let your heart believe it's true

You know love is everything you say
A whisper, a word, promises you give
You feel it in the heartbeat of the day
You know this is the way love is

Amarantine
Amarantine
Amarantine
Love is, love is, love

You know love may sometimes make you cry
So let the tears go they will flow away
For you know love will always let you fly
How far a heart can fly away

Amarantine
Amarantine
Amarantine
Love is, love is, love

You know when love's shining in your eyes
It may be the stars falling from above
And you know love is with you when you rise
For night and day belong to love


For all the lovers, for everybody who are in love and everyone else!

Happy Valentine's Day!!

WHAT REALLY MATTERS?

Song In My Head
Tak Bisakah - Peterpan

The current situation really make me puzzled. The longer I think about it, the more I feared the truth.

Is it me in my own internal dillemma that had caused this confusion? Or I just dont want to lose part of myself?

Why do I have this uneasy feelings when I realized that the usual place and space are no longer the same?

There's an important part of me which I'm trying to hold on to. Inside me, little voices questioning my motives. The same voices are trying to tell me something i don't want to know.

Somehow I began to notice.

For the first time in my life, I don't want to deal with this truth.

FOR YOU DEAR..

MEMORI BAHAGIA

Sayup ku terdengar suaramu
Memanggilku sedar dari lena
Mimpi yang terindah bersamamu
Umpama tiada ungkapan perpisahan
Mungkin harapan yang telah terbina
Seakan pudar warnanya saat sekian lamanya
Bila kau ucapkan air mata ini membasahi pipi

Mampukah ku alunkan semua tawamu
Menjadi melodi menemani diriku
Dapatkah kita memahami jalinan suci
Apakah ertinya kasih sayang ini
Berikanlah masa untuk difikirkan
Apa yang terbaik
Bagi meneruskan percintaan ini
Yang terpendam di jiwa

Dikaulah kejora yang menerangi hatiku
Kala sepi termenungku sendiri
Maafkanlah sekiranya
Kesilapan ku yang dulu
Menyentuh kalbumu

Kenangkanlah memori bahagia
Kau dan aku seiring berpimpin tangan
Mengukir senyuman saling merasa
Dan merindu bila bertemu
Berikanlah masa untuk difikirkan
Apa yang terbaik
Bagi meneruskan percintaan ini
Yang terpendam di jiwa

Dikaulah kejora yang menerangi hatiku
Kala sepi termenungku sendiri
Maafkanlah sekiranya
Kesilapan ku yang dulu
Menyentuh kalbumu

-Sahri-


Dear,

I've fallen in love with this song the moment I heard and understand the lyrics. Thanks. It brought me back to those times.....

Anyway, people say "We forgive to the extent that we love. The best thing is not to hate anyone, only to love. That is the only way out of it. Then you have no reason to hate them, you just forgive. As soon as you have forgiven those who hurt you, you have gotten rid of the anger and hatred"

I'm at peace knowing that I've no longer bear any grudges against you. I've accepted destiny and the fact that we are not fated for each other. But once in a while, i know i'll slip into that mood again. I'll think of our moments together and missing it. I used to shut myself out from the world when i'm in that mood, but now i only will smile and be grateful for those days of bliss.

To let go of someone doesn't mean you have to stop loving, it only means that you allow that person to find his own happiness without expecting him to come back. Letting go is not just setting the other person free, but it is also setting yourself free from all bitterness, hatred, and anger that you keep in your heart.

Thanks for still believing and I really appreciate that. Let's be grateful that as we walk through this life, we knew that we will still care and pray for each other's happiness. I'm contented just to know that we can still be good friends.

In return, that song by Felix is for you..

ME - THE OFFICE GUARDIAN

SONG THAT SUITED MY CURRENT MOOD:
I'm Not OK by My Chemical Romance

Still in the office at this hour alone. Even the Office Queen (Jen aka Miss Universe aka Miss Sexy aka Miss J-Lim) left the office earlier than me.

Need to finish 2005 progress report for the Board of Directors and the deadline is tomorrow! My boss was supposed to be the one who cracked his brain doing this - Not Me! I should be at home lepaking by the fish pond (my favorite spot to layan blues) enjoying the music on my CD player.

This week has been really tiring. Attending interviews, discussions, meetings, phonecalls, coordinating this and that, running to Cargo Building to ensure everything needed for the 5 days training and the external trainer were in place. Now that the company is hiring more people, I need to prescreen and select the applicant resumes to be shorlisted by the requesting departments. When your desk is flooded with tons of resumes everyday (not only from job applicants but also from tertiary institution students applying for industrial placement) going through another hundreds of online resumes is just enough to make you want to vomit.

Working in HR where most of the things are confidential especially when it involved employee salary, benefits, staffs performance, disciplinary record, benefit proposals, employment contract, etc i can't simply delegate my tasks to my subordinates. Because of this, for most of the things, I need to handle it from A to Z. I find it hard for myself to trust people, even staffs from my own department for fear that the info will leak before it was supposed to be known or when it should not be known by others at all. Of course there are things that I get the rest to assist me, other HR areas and function which focussed on our department services to the employees.

So, here I am..still working because the only time I can work peacefully is after the normal office hours. I think I better stop writing and continue doing my report. If not I might be fired by our fiery Mr. Trump!

WHAT'S MY INNER BLOOD TYPE

Your Inner Blood Type is Type B

You follow your own rules in life, even if you change the rules every day. Sure, you tend to be off the wall and unpredictable, but that's what makes you lovable. And even though you're a wild child, you have the tools to be a great success. You are able to concentrate intently - and make the impossible possible. You are most compatible with: B and AB Famous Type B's: Leonardo Di Caprio

Cuba korang test kat

www.blogthings.com/whatsyourinnerbloodtypequiz/

Happy trying!

ME vs THEM

Ya Allah! Ape la nak jadik dengan budak-budak pempuan sekarang..Tak segan silu smoking macam lelaki. Tak malu ke orang tengok..

Itu la..kalau bukan Melayu, bukan Islam takpe jugak..ini anak-anak Melayu. Rosak anak-anak Melayu sekarang. Suka sangat ikut benda-benda yang tak elok..

Apela perasaan diaorang ni..bangga agaknye dapat tunjuk kat orang yang pempuan pun terer smoking. Dah moden sangat kononnye..

Intro perbualan between my mum and dad dlm keta after nampak sorang budak pempuan dengan selambanye smoking kat restoran.

Agaknye ni jenis pempuan yang....

Aku yang mulanye syok layan blues dengar cd, tak dapat control diri dari menjoin bila perbualan diaorang yang pada aku dah jadi macam bias sangat pada orang-orang pempuan yang smoking nih..

Ala, relaxla ma, ayah..biasa la tu zaman sekarang ni setakat pempuan smoking tu kan perkara biasa. Kalau diaorang smoking pun bukan bermakna yang diaorang tu jahat, entah-entah diaorang tu sebenarnye lagi baik dari kita-kita ni yang tak smoking.

Ah, awak tu memang.. Free Thinker. Yang tak boleh pun awak bolehkan..

Errkk..aku free thinker? gulp..Pulak..

Bukan, gitu...kita takleh prejudis kat orang. Kita kena open minded, tak baik kita label sorang pempuan tu jahat semata-mata sebab dia smoking.

Awak tau tak smoking tu makruh?

Tau la makruh, tapi kenapa bila ramai lelaki melayu Islam yang smoking takde pulak orang nak kata dia lelaki tak baik?

Itu lelaki takpe..ini perempuan. Mana peginya tatasusila perempuan? Perempuan sepatutnya mencerminkan peribadi sebagai pempuan.

Aduss...bab tatasusila, bab peribadi keperempuanan ni yang aku lemah..aku dah boleh rasa dah, yang conversation ni akan lead ke arah lain...Alamak bab ni baik aku tak comment lebih-lebih nanti jadi isu lain pulak.

Actually aku pun bukan smoker. Aku alergik dengan asap and bau rokok. I just cant stand it. Confirm akan pening tahap cipan kalau dok dekat dengan orang smoking. Tapi entahle kenapa aku carik bala dengan gatal mulut nak interupt conversation diaorang pun aku tak tau. Maybe aku try nak diaorang tengok dari sudut pandangan lain, taknak they sound too prejudice, terlalu menilai orang based on the surface. Tapi, seperti biasa..i can't changed their mind, aku pulak yang kena balik...

SO isu dia kat sini, sebab dia PEMPUAN, kan?
Tak adil la kita nak kata dia tu jahat, dia tu tak bermoral semata-mata dia smoking. Masyarakat melabel perempuan smoking tu sebagai perempuan tak baik, kita jangan jadik sebahagian masyarakat yang berpikiran macam tu. Okla, maybe betul la orang ni sosial, tapi tak bermakna as a person dia ni bukan orang baik. Sometimes, luaran orang ni nampak macam tu tapi entah-entah hati dia lebih ikhlas dari orang lain. Kita terima seseorang tu sebagai satu individu, kenal hati dia baru boleh nak judge dia tu baik ke jahat.

Awak tu memang pandai cakap. Tak pernah nak terima pendapat orang.

Aiks, aku lagi..sape yang takleh terima pendapat sape nih?

Jangan salah sangka, bukan taknak terima pendapat atau nak bolehkan yang tak boleh. Dalam kes ni, biarlah kita adil menilai seseorang. Mungkin sebagai manusia banyak lagi ciri positif yang dia ada, takkan kerana dia smoking semua kebaikan dia kita ignore and terus cop dia sebagai jahat?

Budak-budak sekarang macam nilah, bila ada pelajaran sikit, terus rasa diri pandai, pandangan orang-orang tua semua tak boleh pakai, semua salah. Awak kena ingat ayah dengan mama ni lagi dulu makan garam, lagi tau menilai manusia & hidup. Jangan ingat awak berpelajaran tinggi, pendangan orang tua semua kolot.

Tak, orang tak cakap pun mama dengan ayah kolot, pandangan tak boleh pakai semua tu tapi tak best la kalau kita terus bagi negative perception kat orang semata-mata orang tu tak macam kita. Sebab tu la dalam dunia ni ada discrimination, wujud racist sebab kita tunjukkan benci kita pada benda atau orang yang berbeza dengan kita. Semata-mata orang tu ada different value, different lifestyle dari kita tak bermakna dia tu tak baik sebagai seorang manusia.

Ni la dia terlalu diinfluence dengan idea-idea barat, jadik terlalu open sampai yang tak boleh pun dibolehkan...

Tak la ayah, mama, orang bukan nak membolehkan yang tak boleh, at least kalau dia ni salah sekalipun, kita kena guide dia bukannye kutuk or pandang semacam kat dia. Macammana orang ni nak berubah? Tu la sebabnye ex-convict and ex-addict balik semula ke jalan salah sebab diaorang tak diterima masyarakat walaupun diaorang tu pada awalnye memang nak turn over new leaf. Kurang support dari masyarakat yang cuma tahu point silap orang je.

Yang awak ni pun satu, nak mempertahankan sangat budak tu kenapa? Kerana dia, sampai nak bertegang leher pulak dengan mak bapak..

Aiseh...kan..aku dah kata..mesti aku gak yang kena...

Okla, orang salah, mama n ayah betul. Memang..budak tu memang tak patut, dahle pempuan, pi smoking in public pulak. Tak tau malu langsung. Menjatuhkan imej perempuan-perempuan Malaya je. Kita tak boleh biarkan sume ni mama, ayah..kita kena buat Roadshow "No Smoking Campaign for Women" dengan motto "Wanita Mithali Benci Rokok" hehehe... Ape lagi kita tunggu, jom la kita jumpa Menteri Belia & Sukan..

Cuba awak tengok perangai anak awak ni bang. Bukan nak dengar, semua nak bangkang lepas tu bila orang cakap betul-betul buat main pulak..

Biarkanlah dia..dia kan dah besar..dah pandai, mana nak terima cakap mak bapak dah...

Aku gelak jeklah. Ape nak buat, cakap serious sangat kena blame, lebih baik buat ala-ala main-main. It's always like that between me and my parents. Masing-masing dengan pendirian masing masing. Aku kadang-kadang nak diaorang open sikit bila tengok satu-satu isu tu, tapi at the same time aku rasa diaorang pun tak suka cara aku berpikir gak kot, yang pada diaorang terlalu liberal. Biasala, generation gap.

Actually, I should have known better that in any case, in any situation, my parents are always right. Don't ever try to voice out my opinion especially if mine is different from them. Boleh jadik kontroversi woo..Sebab tu la aku malas nak argue lebih-lebih sebab conversation ni normally akan berakhir dengan syarahan khas untuk aku. Topik ape..ermm macam-macam dari bab pakai tudung sampai la ke bab kawen. Lama plak tu, boleh cair telinga. Aduss! Sendiri carik bala...hahaha!

KERANAMU KEKASIH

Lagu dah lama, tapi baru je jatuh cinta dengan lagu ni....

"Sekecil burung kedidi, adinda terbang ke hati kekanda,
mengharapkan cinta yang mengunung"

"Jika patah sayap rajawali, bertongkat jua kanda kemari"

Kekasih jangan berduka
Yakin kita kan bersama
Hati ini satu walau jauh di mata
Ikatan cinta
Luhurnya dijiwa

Hati pujuklah perasaan
Jauhi segala keraguan
Sayang untukmu kukorbankan
Demi satu harapan
kepangkuanmu kasih
Keranamu kekasih

Hadirmu bagai cahaya
Damai resah dan gelora
Hati kita satu walau lara melanda
Asmara cinta
Tiada hujungnya

Hati pujuklah perasaan
Jauhi segala kesangsian
Cinta walaupun berjauhan
Kan kukenang senyuman
Kerinduanku masih
Kepadamu kekasih

Hati pujuklah perasaan
Jauhi segala keraguan
Cinta walaupun berjauhan
Kan kukenang senyuman
Kerinduan ku masih
Kepadamu kekasih
Dan keyakinan ku masih
Kepadamu kekasih

-Vince-

Haha...February, the Month of Love, let's get in the looovee mooooood, guys...

Dedicated to someone who make me realized that a special bond between two people really do exist.

For Snow, if you love something set it free, if it returns it was meant to be. If it continues to fly let it soar and have faith that God has something better in store.