KILLING THE PAST & COMING BACK TO LIFE

Apart from the usual chaos and tension at work, so far my personal life has been peaceful and calm. It's ironic because months ago I was expecting misery to wander around for some time before leaving me to move on. At times i wonder whether i'm still in denial stage or did I surpressed my feelings and refuse to acknowledge it. I was preparing myself for the worst emotional torture but luckily, it didn't turn out to be as bad as i expected. I started to feel better after few weeks of thinking and everything went back to normal soon after. People around me has indirectly helped me a lot though they might not be aware of the state of my situation as I rarely show or share my grief and sadness. They truly made me happy just by being there and I feel blessed to have these lovely people in my life.

Going through painful experience is in fact a very valuable lesson. These experience has really taught me how to cope with the downside of life with courage and optimism. There are moments when I feel as if it will kill me, but it don't and I manage to get through it. In the end, it has transformed me to be a wiser and emotionally stronger person. I do believe in the saying "life is not a matter of having good cards, but playing a poor hand well''. Accepting that there are things I cannot change make the healing process much more easier while diverting my attention and resources to the right channel had helped me find the "reasons" I have been searching for.

What happened had opened my eyes and I began look at life, especially mine differently. As I discover the "reasons", life seems more meaningful and I started to appreciate every little things i have been granted. I enjoyed my newfound peace and deep inside I feel lighter, happier and more relaxed.

No life will be easy as difficulties and troubles will exist in everyone's life. Full of highs and lows, we just don't know what will happen and where we will be in the future. I hope i will always be strong to withstand any adversities in life. I know there'll be times when i succumb to the pressure and fall apart, but i pray no matter how low my life has hit the rock bottom and how many times i've been knocked down, eventually, i will always be able to bounce back, hopefully as a better person.

THE REASON

I'm not a perfect person

There's many things I wish I didn't do

But I continue learning

I never meant to do those things to you

And so I have to say before I go

That I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me

To change who I used to be

A reason to start over new

and the reason is you

I'm sorry that I hurt you

It's something I must live with everyday

And all the pain I put you through

I wish that I could take it all away

And be the one who catches all your tears

That's why I need you to hear

I've found a reason for me

To change who I used to be

A reason to start over new

and the reason is you

I'm not a perfect person

I never meant to do those things to you

And so I have to say before I go

That I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me

To change who I used to be

A reason to start over new

and the reason is you

I've found a reason to show

a side of me you didn't know

A reason for all that I do

And the reason is you

-Hoobastank-

THE TRANSPORTER 2

I was looking for crime detection / thriller kind of movies to watch during my offdays when this VCD cover caught my eyes. The synopsis was quite interesting so I decided to give it a try though i'm actually expecting a slow movie filled with boring conversations. (Just like Kill Bill 2 which didn't really meet my expectations despite its publicity and Quentin Tarantino's reputation).


But The Transporter 2 proved me wrong. It's a fast-paced movie packed with actions. Full of cool shooting, fighting, and car chase scenes (plus less talk), it keep me glued to my seat throughout the movie.


This film is about an ex-special agent turned freelance transporter, Frank Martin (acted by Jason Statham) who drove a cool hi-tech car to ensure he has the speed and resources to get his package delivered. This time his 'package' is a small boy where he is assigned to be the chauffeur cum bodyguard for one of the Government Agencies Diretor's son. When the boy was kidnapped and injected with a deadly virus, he needs to save the boy, find a cure for the virus and unfoiled a secret plot against the government.


The plot is simple yet interesting. However, if you are expecting a believable plot, this is not your cup of tea.Transporter 2 is not meant to be a realistic movie. Some of the shooting and fighting scenes reminds me of the stunts you'd find in Hindi / Tamil or Jackie Chan's movies (but cooler and with more style, of course). As much as I was complaining at the unrealistic action scenes, I found myself enjoying all the stunts despite its lack of reality. I'm not a fan of Jackie's or Tamil movies but for me although The Transporter 2 are unrealistic in several accounts, they certainly are incredibly entertaining. I was a bit disappointed with the ending part though, as it wasn't as sophisticated as the rest of the movie scenes. Apart from the few last scenes, you will enjoy this movie if you just want to have fun watching. With its own unique stylishness and humor, this is a definitely worth-watching movie.

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