UNTITLED

I open my eyes
I try to see

but I'm blinded by the white light
I can't remember how
I can't remember why
I'm lying here tonight


And I can't stand the pain
And I can't make it go away
No I can't stand the pain


How could this happen to me
I made my mistakes
Got no where to run
The night goes on
As I'm fading away
I'm sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me


Everybody's screaming
I try to make a sound

but no one hears me
I'm slipping off the edge
I'm hanging by a thread
I wanna start this over again


So I try to hold onto a time when nothing mattered
And I can't explain what happened
And I can't erase the things that I've done
No I can't


How could this happen to me
I made my mistakes
Got no where to run
The night goes on
As I'm fading away
I'm sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me

I HAVE TO...

Pagi ni aku dapat berita tak best. Something yang boleh buat ati aku lagi panas.
Tapi, patut ke aku marah? Atau aku sebenarnya jeles?


Kenapa aku marah? Sebab lain yang dicakap tapi lain yang dibuat.
Kenapa aku jeles? Ntah....


Aku try buat macam biasa..
Kena pikir positif..pikir positif...pikir positif..
Set dalam kepala otak yang semua ni buat projek aku lagi senang..
pikir positif..pikir positif..pikir positif..
Decision yang aku buat memang tepat..
I'm on the right track..I made the right decision! yeah!








*foRgET eVERYThING cOS nOTHInG lASTS fOrEVeR!!*

HEARTS BREAKING EVEN

Its been a cold, cold, cold, cold night, tonight

And I cant get you off of my mind

God knows Ive tried

Did I throw away the best part of my life when I cut you off

Did I cut myself with the same damn knife

Hide my tears in the pouring rain, Had my share of hurt and pain

Dont say my name, run away cos its all in vain

My hearts breaking even, now there is no use we even try

Hey I cried, yeah I lied, hell I almost died

Dont got a reason

Lets just fold the cards and say good-bye

Its all right, just two hearts breaking even tonight

Its been a long, long, long, long time

since Ive had your love here in my hands

We didnt understand it, we couldnt understand it

But, nothing is fair in love and hate

You lay it all down and walk away, before its too late

We danced all night as the music played

The sheets got tangled in the mess we made

There in the stains, we remain

No one left to blame

My hearts breaking even, now there is no use we even try

Hey I cried, yeah I lied, hell I almost died

Dont got a reason

Lets just fold the cards and say good-bye

Its all right, just two hearts breaking even tonight

Go on, get on with your life, Yeah I will get on with mine

Broken hearts cant call the cops

Yeah its a perfect crime

Twisting and turning the night keeps me yearning

I am burning alive, I am paying the price again

But I will see the light again

My hearts breaking even, now there is no use we even try

Hey I cried, yeah I lied, hell I almost died

Dont got a reason

Lets just fold the cards and say good-bye

Its all right, just two hearts breaking even tonight

TETIBA TERINGAT LA PULAK......

I never wanted the stars
I never shot for the moon
I like them right where they are
All I wanted was you
So baby just turn away cos I can't face the truth
All I'm trying to say is all I wanted was you

AKU KE YANG SALAH?

We can't always make everyone happy. Sometimes you think you have done your best, but not everybody will think so. Malam tadi aku kena sekolah dengan ayah. The usual issue, he said that i spend too much time in the office.

Betul pun, memang banyak masa aku abis kat opis. But what to do, i happen to fall in love with my work. Lagipun, memang kerja tengah banyak so of course I need to spend extra hours in the office. It suits me cos I need something to fill my mind. Bak kata Karn, lagi banyak free time yang ada, lagi banyak masa untuk pikir bebenda personal. Itu yang aku tak nak so better aku timbunkan diri dengan kertas2 and fail2 yang ada kat opis ni.

Aku pun tak salahkan diaorang. Cuma sometimes I can't help wondering whether diaorang yang tak nak memahami ataupun aku ni memang bukan anak yang baik. For me, I've done what I can. Bukan aku tak spend time dengan diaorang langsung. I've tried my best to divide my time between work, friends and family. Maybe I failed to do so cos in the end my work takes 75% of my time.

Sometimes bila panas telinga tu, i can't help thinking that they should be grateful cos i spend my time working in the office bukannye kat tempat-tempat yang 'tak sihat'. Kalau diaorang marah sebab aku asyik gi dating ke, berpoya2 ke ok la jugak..boleh la aku paham..tapi kena marah sebab kerja? Hmmm..susah nak diterima dek akal aku yang degil ni...

BLACK MONDAY!!

After taking a break for more than a week, this morning I came to work with mixed feelings. When i woke up, i wish i was still on leave. Aku sendiri pun pelik....I wonder where has the workaholic Survivor disappeared. I thought my mind was still on holiday mode but i never expect that a disaster is waiting for me back in the office...


Pagi ni office huru hara especially in my department. Everybody was busy talking and shouting at the same time. Riuh mengalahkan Wall Street. I was about to take one of the projector to the training center when I saw the laptop case lying on the floor in the conference room. Aku ingatkan Mr. S punye sebab dia ni selalu tertinggal laptop case dia. Dalam kepala aku pikir dia ni mesti ada meeting last Saturday sebab cable laptop tu still attached pada extension plug lagi. Later I found out that the laptop is not Mr. S, but the one under HR responsibility.


Kalau betul hilang memang mati le kena goreng. It's going to be the 2nd missing laptop case so far. Yang aku hot kenapa la takde sorang pun yang ambik berat pasal harta company. Lepas aku soal siasat, most of the staff nampak yang laptop case tu ada dalam conference room tapi semua ignore gitu jek. Tambah hot lagi, benda ni mungkin dah hilang since 4th February tapi disebabkan attitude lepas tangan diaorang ni, bila aku jumpa case kosong tu, baru realise laptop ni hilang. Geram betul..takkan le sepanjang masa aku cuti ni takde orang nampak benda tu berhari-hari terbiar kat situ?! Pening kepala aku. That's what happened kalau tak ikut procedure and takde rasa tanggungjawab. It's everybody fault. Orang yang pinjam tak reti nak pulang and the rest yang nampak benda tu lepak berhari2 dalam conference room pun tak ambik peduli. So, bila dah hilang semua orang tak nak mengaku silap..

Since I was the one yang jumpa, so I have to submit a report to the management. Bertambah satu masalah lagi & tambah pening la kepala aku yang dah memang tengah ting tong ni...AARRRGHHHHHH!!!