IMPIAN YANG GILER

Giler ke aku kalau tahun ni aku nak:



Beli laptop

bajet:RM3500



Beli Digital SLR camera

bajet: RM4000



Beli PDA baru (my dream DOPOD 818)

bajet:RM2100



Pi trip ke bali

bajet:RM3000



Pi trip ke Kuching

bajet:RM2000



Pasang sport rim kat B-Tam

bajet:RM1500



Confirm aku memang giler!!! RM16100!!

Mana nak korek dalam setahun!! Muahahaha!!

LIPS OF AN ANGEL - HINDER

Lagu ni my current fav...best!

Honey why you calling me so late?
It's kinda hard to talk right now.
Honey why are you crying?
Is everything okay?
I gotta whisper 'cause I can't be too loud

Well, my girl's in the next room
Sometimes I wish she was you
I guess we never really moved on
It's really good to hear your voice say my name
It sounds so sweet
Coming from the lips of an angel
Hearing those words it makes me weak
And I never wanna say goodbye
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel

It's funny that you're calling me tonight
And, yes, I've dreamt of you too
And does he know you're talking to me
Will it start a fight
No I don't think she has a clue

Well my girl's in the next room
Sometimes I wish she was you
I guess we never really moved on
It's really good to hear your voice say my name
It sounds so sweet
Coming from the lips of an angel
Hearing those words it makes me weak
And I never wanna say goodbye
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel

It's really good to hear your voice say my name
It sounds so sweet
Coming from the lips of an angel
Hearing those words it makes me weak
And I never wanna say goodbye
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel
And I never wanna say goodbye
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel

Honey why you calling me so late?

TENTANG KERJA

Lately ni nak update pun takde idea.

Dah dekat sebulan 2007 ni so far life ok ok je. Better than 2006, alhamdulilah. Kenapa this year setakat ni aku rasa better dari tahun lepas? Aku pun heran gak sebenarnye. Kalau ikutkan sama je kadar huru hara & stress tu. Penyumbang utama stress aku ape lagi kalau tak benda2 kat opis ni & diikuti dengan life kat luar opis. Tapi bila aku pikir2 balik, rasanye mungkin sekarang life aku kat luar opis lebih aman & lebih tenang. Tinggal nak control jiwa tang bab bab kat opis ni jelah.

Kat opis awal-awal tahun ni biasalah, huru hara skit especially lepas dapat surat increment sume tu. Pening betul nak melayan. Ada la segelintir yang tak puas ati. Yang berpangkat atas-atas dok komplen pada Pn. Shila & yang berpangkat bawah-bawah dok komplen pada aku. Yang dok komplen kat belakang sesama sendiri pun sure ramai rasanye.

Yang peliknya (walaupun aku sebenarnya tak pelik pun), mereka-mereka yang jumpa aku nak meluahkan rasa tak puas ni kebanyakannnya (bukan semua) staff yang bermasalah. Diaorang kata Head diaorang ni berdendam dengan diaorang la, dah buat keje macam nak mampus tapi increment sikit la, bla bla bla..Tapi untuk orang-orang ni, tak payah la nak klentong aku. Dah korang yang tak buat keje ikut arahan camne nakla Head korang nak rekemen rating bagus. In fact, masa my daily walkabout round pun, memang selalu nampak muka-muka bermasalah ni buat masalah. And kerana diaorang ni gak la aku selalu kena buat rondaan mengejut walaupun masa weekend.

Tahun ni kira tough gak le. Misi utama: Nak mengorganize semula servis department aku & upgrade kepala otak orang-orangnye. Cabaran yang dah tersedia nak handle staff otai kat department aku yang sorang ni. But this year I'm determine to do it, takkan pasal kelemauan dia semua orang kena tempias. Keje dah la slow, berkira pulak tu, banyak excuse, uncooperative, banyak sgt attend personal issue waktu kerja. Bila waktu appraisal melenting sebab dapat teruk. Bukan aku saje nak dengki ke ape tapi kena fair la dengan yang lain. Dah orang lain kena cover keje dia, takkan aku nak bagi dia rating 5 bintang pulak. Dahle tu, dok hasut staff sana sini biar tak puas ati dengan company. Ade ke patut. Ye la aku pun kadang2 tak puas ati gak dengan company, ada masa nyampah dengan top management, tapi aku sedar status aku sebagai staff HR & peranan staff HR ni nak bridge the gap between employee-employer bukan makin keruhkan keadaan.

En. Otai ni pulak jumpa dengan Pn. Shila sebab tak puas ati dengan aku. Nak ngadu yang kononnya aku bagi rating tak fair, tapi muahahaha (ketawa setan) dia kena bambu balik. Sampai in the end Pn. Shila soh dia mintak maaf dengan aku. Nasib baik la engkau nak retire tahun ni En. Otai. Tapi sebenarnye kalau engkau ada ke takde pun sama gak. Buat penat je aku buat Job Description untuk kau tapi keje kau orang lain yang buat. Biarla staff bawah aku tak ramai tapi semua bole buat keje daripada ade ramai tapi setakat jadi perhiasaan & menambahkan overhead cost aje.

Dulu time exBOS memang dia lepas tangan abis. I got to know the good news first and I have to tell the bad news. Semua orang suka nak sampaikan berita baik. In fact, semua orang nak jadi the first one to tell someone the good news. Tapi bila time bad news semua mengelak. Lagi-lagi keje kat HR ni, bila strict skit orang dah menyampah. Salah approach staff nanti staff rasa demotivated la, staff rasa company tak suka dia la..etc etc. Kalau lenient pulak, management bising. Nanti ade isu timbul, HR jugak disalahkan.

Under Pn. Shila aku rasa macam ok skit. At least she is supportive and we both want this department to perform. Buat masa ni aku confident staff aku yang lain (excluding En. Otai) boleh ditrain & boleh dipakai.

HAPPY NEW YEAR

It's new year again!

Macam baru je buat entry pasal tahun baru 2006.

Ayah keep asking me what's my 2007 resolution...and just like last year, i have none. It's still the same motto for me 'DO WHAT I HAVE TO DO'

How was my 2006?

Personal
Hmm, it began with quite unpleasant start due to my foolishness. Spent nearly 3/4 of the year to make everything work and crushed my heart and spirit along the way until i reluctantly forced myself to stop trying. Susah woo..sungguh complicated sekali kisahnya (tapi sorry ar aku maleh nak citer) and 2006 will leave me with painful mark because of this.

And seriously life is so ironic. (teringat lagu 'Ironic' by Alanis Morissette). After months of blind waiting and hoping, my wish came true just a few days after i've commit myself to something else. (teringat plak kat lirik lagu Michael learn to Rock yang ada "bla bla bla 25 minutes too late" tu hahah). Pastu ape lagi, eden pun dalam dilemma la. I feel really guilty for not waiting a little bit longer and torn between two choices (teringat kat lagu Demi Waktu by Ungu pulak..); whether to stick to something I have known for quite sometime and let myself experience the roller coaster ride form hell again or give a chance to the unknown. Ikut ati nak dua-dua tapi, orang tua ajar tak boleh tamak..pendidikan moral pun sama..so in the end after so much of eye opening incidents, aku pilih option yang kedua. And I never regret it till this day.

There must be some reasons why Allah planned it this way. I believe that because all these while the first option never give me anything but heartache. It just me who wanna stick to this broken dream thus hanging on to it though there's a better option in front of me.

Office / Work
Office life became more stressful especially after Bos resigned. But then, i like working under Pn. Shila. There's only me, Tina and Ainie left, now that Jen and June has resigned. And who knows among the 3 stooges there will be one who will be leaving soon. More and more people are leaving and I dont know what i'm doing here. Oh, I forgot that i've been handcuffed for two years.

Anyway, I'm glad that I've managed to accomplished most of my plans last year. The only difficult thing to do as much as i try is to wake up and go to bed early (confirm! i'm a nocturnal animal!).

The unexpected
I've start my own move.
The house and the new car

The new life?

The expected
More responsibilities
More expectations from those around me.

Selingan:

Carn, Selamat Pengantin Baru..You look gorgeous in that wedding dress of yours.

To someone, thank you for bringing rainbow in my grayscale world. Thanks for all the sweet things you have done for me.

To A, i'm sorry it has to end this way. For me, love is about transparency and sincerity. To love somebody is to really know that somebody. We can't sit & simply wait for things to happen bcos it need both parties serious effort to make it work.

OK, Back to business..

Overall, I'm glad that 2006 finally ended. At least it ended well for me. I hope 2007 will be better for everyone. Next entry aje la citer pasal plan 2007, itu pun kalau aku rajin. Anyway,

Happy 2007 guys!

THIS PRIVATE HOSPITAL SUCKS!

It feels so good to be back.
How I miss my messy desk and dusty pc..

Dari dok spital sejuta kali lagi baik aku dok berumahtangga kat opis ni! lagi best..

I can say that my experience staying in the hospital is not something that i wanted to go through again. And for a private hospital, the service is definately not to my expectation - with exception to staffs from Physiotheraphy Department. I'm not saying this because i still have to attend few more physio sessions, but they deserved it. At least their care and service met the expectation of a private hospital.

TOILET
The floor is wet and slippery because of the waterdrip from the leaky hose. Not to mention the smell..YUCKS!

BATHROOM
I dont know why the never bother to replace the shower. Takpun buang aje shower tu, biar patient sume mandi pakai gayung & baldi.

NURSES ON DUTY
Day Shift
Service & friendliness ok la - aku kasi 3 Bintang cewah!

Night Shift - Sungguhlah HAMPEH!!
It took them ages to attend the patient. Mlm tu aku mintak pil migraine punyela berjanggut tunggu, sampai aku fedap and pi kedai kat bawah kononnye nak beli Actifast. Unfortunately, I forgot that it's nearly 12am and the convinience shop downstairs is not 7Eleven.

Kebetulan, ternampak sign 'Inpatient Pharmacy', ingatkan bole la mintak ubat kat situ. JANGAN HARAP!

Pharmacist tu kata aku kena mintak kat nurse bangang kat atas, and nurse bangang ni yang akan request kat pharmacy. Cey!

Naik atas balik, tekan loceng.
Terkedek kedek nurse bangang datang.

Sayang, muke cute tapi lembab. Hehe..

Me: Pil migraine yang saya mintak tadi mana?
NB: (Dengan suara & muka tak bersalah) Oh, dah sakit sangat eh? tunggu sekejap ye, nanti saya bawak. (and terus blah)
WTF! kalau tak sakit buat ape aku mintak la..pandainye..anak sape nih?

You are not gonna believe this..
Bila dia datang balik 20min kendian, terkedek-kedek mcm tadi & just bawak 2 bijik panadol biasa! it's not even Actifast!
Double WTF!! Allo I nak migraine pill sista! Not panadol!
Bila aku tanye balik dia kata orang kat pharmacy tu yang kasi.
ALLO!! kalau kau mintak ubat pening mmg la dia kasi panadol, aku kan mintak ubat migraine!

There's a HUGE difference between pening & migraine la sista..u belajar ke tak ni?AIYO!@

Mesti tak lulus kursus jururawat tapi dapat kerja guna orang dalam!

Note: Thot I was the only victim. Rupanye one girl yang jaga mak dia kat situ pun senasib. Rupanye nurse2 bangang ni tak tukar blood bag mak dia yang dah sampai masa ditukar. Punyela tekan buzzer mcm nak mampus tapi takde sekor pun yang attend. Siap pi kaunter panggil, diaorang dok sibuk kata jap lagi nak datang tapi tak datang-datang. Kalau patient nak mati, dah mati agaknye! Sibuk berborak & ketawa macam pontianak tak ingat dunia kat luar tu boleh la pulak. Diaorang ni bagus jadi Badut Hospital.

ADMISSION & DISCHARGE COUNTER
Unfriendly & slow service. Banyak sangat birokrasi.
Kalau dtg as outpatient, tak payah amik time off, make sure u mintak mc or amik cuti.

MEAL / FOODS OUTLET
Aku rasa makanan kat GH pun tak seCHAPLANG makanan serve kat sini.

Ada 2 Marrybrown outlet, satu cafe kat ground floor & satu lagi fast food outlet kat LG floor.

Staff kat cafe ni very the unfriendly. Tunggu macam nak mampus tapi takde yang amik order. Tarik muka pulak tu, macam la customer ni bawak suwey kat cafe dia yang tak best tu.

Kat fast food outlet tingkat bawah aku tak tau. Baru masuk sebelah kaki dah rasa macam nak muntah

Bau ayam goreng + bau ubat-ubat + bau hospital = LOYA!!

THE SAVIOUR

THUMBS UP to Physiotherapy staffs for the excellent service.

In the end, I managed to pujuk the doctor to discharge me. I rather drive from Senai to JB to attend my physiotherapy sessions than to spend one more day in this hospital.

BUDAK INI MEMANG DEGIL!

Eversince I did MRI in August, I never turn up for follow up and i've skipped the physiotheraphy sessions.

Ignorance or stubborness?
Both I guess.

The pills and the medicated plasters given by the doctor is quite effective that I thot I'm totally cured.After a while I stopped taking the pills, dumped the plasters in my room drawer and stop heeding the doctor's advice. Haha! I'm back to being my lasak self!

I did feel my back ache sometimes, thinking that it was normal, i assume the pain will disappear naturally.
Nothing bother me even when my colleagues and my housemate told me that my back was swollen.

Tina keep telling me to go for massage. All I told her was 'Ah! Tak kuasa la I..' while asking the tealady to use the office phone to 'karate' my back. (My backache was too 'degil' that hand massage didnt work for me anymore.)
It worried me a bit when suddenly there's this weird kind of pain at my pelvic area.
For the millionth time Tina told me to go for massage and I ignore it as usual.

The pain became worst and I notice the swell. I could not sleep because it became unbearably painful whenever I move. The next morning, my body ache all over.I could not turn and bend my body.

When I went to the clinic the doctor refer me to the other hospital. To get 2nd opinion katanye.

Now I wonder if I didnt skip my physio before will I still have this problem?
If I heed Tina's advice to go for massage, maybe everything will not turn out like this?
Is it because of lifting and moving heavy things masa pindah ari tu?
Or sebab ari tu curi-curi main bowling sampai 5 game?

I have to try my best to stick to the physio session this time. Knowing myself, i have a very low patience and commitment level to thing like this.Tak suke kena attached dengan benda2 berjadual ni. (Sebab tu dulu selalu ponteng tuition).Sekarang I have to la, no choice.

Hmm...

KETEPI AR BODOH!!

Aku paling menyirap dengan orang yang bawak keta syok sendiri!

Bayangkan la bila korang nak cepat, time tu la jalanraya nak slow giler. Lepas berusaha mencilok sana sini macam mat rempit, tetiba korang tengok punca jalanraya jadik slow bukan sebab accident ke, traffic jam ke, tapi disebabkan satu keta yang drivernya ada sakit mental, anggap lane kanan tu tempat paling best nak menikmati keindahan tepi jalan. Speed limit 80km/j tapi bawak 50km/j!

Dahla bawak keta terhegeh-hegeh, dah 'sound lampu' pun bole buat bodo je, macam jalanraya tu dia sorang yang guna. Lepas tu muka macam tak bersalah la pulak jadik penyebab kereta-kereta lain berduyun-duyun mengekor belakang bontot keta dia. Selamba badak jek! Kalau dah tau nak bawak slow tu dokla kat lane kiri so tak menganggu kelancaran lalulintas especially kami-kami yang nak mengejar masa ni!

Ikutkan ati nak aje aku langgar je keta ni sampai terhumban kat tepi jalan so dia bole la dok selama-lamanya menikmati pemandangan kat situ. Tapi tak berbaloi rasanye nak jadi road bully, tak pasal-pasal aku pulak yang menikmati pemandangan kat penjara...ceh!