THE DAY

I'm officially 31, people!!

Hahah..i already passed the big three O and it won't be long before the next digit hit my age.

Q: So,ape perasaan setelah jadi tua lagi setahun? 31 tu agak tua tu...

A: Takde perasaan. Memetik kata-kata Bernard Baruch "To me, old age is always 15 years older than I am" hehe..

Q: Birthday wish(es)?

A: To be able to do anything that i wanna do and to have whatever i want..(boleh jawab gitu?!)

Q: How much do you think you have changed over the years?

A: Apart from my weight, I think i haven't changed much. i'm still the same 'giler' person as i was years back. I'm still 'ganas' despite my parents effort to train me to be more ladylike (haha), I'm still afraid of long term commitment and yang paling penting people still say that i look younger than my real age..(ayat perasan awet muda). The only difference now i'm living on my own, i have more freedom, i've worked with few companies thus more immune to office politics and backstabbing, i've been through and survived the darkest moments of my life. Overall i can say that i'm now more experienced (ceh! ayat standard) and i've achieved most of the things i've worked for in life. Tapi, (dengan merendah dirinye) I'm still working on achieving the rest of my dreams and still hoping for the best in my life .

For me my birthday is just like any ordinary day. Nothing special and nothing to be fussed about. I dun mind if people dun remember my birthday and i dun mind if there's no celebration or watsover. I want it to pass as quiet and as ordinary as possible. Tapi, I do appreciate people's effort to remember my birthday. Be it a surprise celebration or a wish, it never fail to touch my heart that people around me do remember the date of my existence.

Thanks to my housemate for organizing the surprise midnite celebration and the celebration the day after. Also thanks to my Aini & Fazrul for the wonderful celebration aka sesi tunjuk bakat at Redbox. I think the triangle shape birthday cake is very creative and (understanding?), the candles that were supposed to represent my age was replaced by strawberries and there's only one small candles in the middle of the cake. Sadly, this year Carn and Jen were not here to celebrate my birthday but thank you guys for still remembering.

And thanks to the rest of you for the birthday gifts and wishes. Tahun depan buat la lagi ;) hehe..

SHOULD YOU QUIT YOUR JOB?

Your Job Dissatisfaction Level is 41%

Well, you don't have the worst job in the world, but it's not great.And don't worry, you're not the problem - your company is. Start looking around for another job, even if you're not totally fed up. Because in time, you're going to be dying to quit! Hahahah...how true!! Mari mengapply kerja lain!! Try yours at http://www.blogthings.com/shouldyouquityourjobquiz/

KILL ME, FIRE ME, SACK ME (SO I DONT HAVE TO GO TO WORK ANYMORE)

Nowadays I wish everyday is Friday so I don't have to work the next day. I wish every weekdays morning is Saturday so when I wake up I know it's weekend and I still have one more day off.

I hate Sunday night because I know I have to go to work the next day. I hate Monday morning because I have to prepare myself for another 5 days of mental tortures.

Selingan : Back in my childhood days, I don't know why but I hate Tuesday. Sampai sekarang ni kalau aku pikir-pikir balik pun aku tak tau kenapa. Rasa-rasanye sebab hari selasa takde rancangan yang best kat tv kot. Pastu bila dah masuk sekolah menengah I hate Monday & Wednesday cos ade band practice. Kenapa tak suke? Sebab seniors ni garang giler kalah serigala jadian. All of the juniors was really terrified of these seniors. Even dengan cikgu pun kitaorang tak takut macam tu. I'll get queasy stomach and sweaty palms on these two days cos each band practice session is a real mental and physical torture especially bila drilling & field practice, except for certain days that we did the concert practice inside the hall kadar penderaan berkurang sikit. Bila kat U pulak, the only days yang aku tak suka ialah ari yang ade kelas pukul 8 pagi and ari yang ada kelas malam.

I remembered when i started working here, i love every working days and I dread long holidays and weekends. Now, it has turned to be competely opposite. My existing demotivation is further 'enhanced' by this meaningless meeting that i was 'forced' to attend. Maybe I'm getting tired of the red tape, office politics and finger pointing and neverending discussions of the same issues.

At this point I wish I'm only a clerk. Pukul 8.30 pagi masuk keje pastu 5.30ptg balik umah. Akhir bulan dapat gaji. Tak payah nak pening sampai tak boleh tido ingat pasal assigment keje yang berlambak. Tak payah nak menjawab kat top management kalau department tak achieve target. Tak payah nak abiskan masa 4-5 jam seari dok dalam blamestorming and finger pointing session!!

I Hate Monday!!
I Hate Tuesday!!
I Hate Wednesday!!
I Hate Thursday!!
I Hate Friday Morning!!
I HATE WORKING DAYS!!

AKU YANG RISAU TAPI MALAS NAK PI CHECKUP

I think i'm going to die soon!

My health is seriously deteriorating..Or maybe it's just a normal aging process?

Been down with high fever for a week. Dah 3 round antibiotik aku makan, tapi mcm tak totally cure pun. Ada masa badan still panas and ada masa macam nak pitam la pulak. Sakit sendi badan jangan citer la, I wish i have personal massuer (betul ke eja dia ni?) at home.

Doktor kata blood pressure normal

Nak kata denggi, gusi & hidung tak berdarah lagi..

Doktor kata maybe sebab tonsil aku dah bengkak

Should i take it seriously and worry or am i just a hypochondraic?

AM I?

A hypochondriac is preoccupied with his/her health and body while I am far far away from that. People closest to me won't label me as stubborn if I'm so concerned about my health.

But then, I'm pretty hell sure that my body immunization is not as excellent as it always be. Nak pi medical checkup mcm malas la pulak (see, that's one proof that i'm a very un-hypochondriac). Entah-entah ada HIV kot? Aiyo!

Lately, kaki pulak sakit semacam. Semalam Cik Nani kata ligamen kaki aku bengkak. Sebab tu aku menjerit macam org giler masa kena urut.

Demam, pitam, sakit badan, sakit kaki, tonsil, batuk, selsema...ish! ish! banyaknye penyakit...

Dah tua dah aku ni..rasa-rasanye sume orang yg melalui proses penuaan pun rasa mcm ni gaknye kot?

TAGGED: MY DESKTOP

Finally i got time to do this...Sorry Carn, i'm a bit illiterate when it comes to the technical aspect of the computer. (Berkecahnye desktop aku...hehehe..)

Resolution : 1024 by 768 pixel (right clik/properties/setting)
Laptop, LCD or CRT monitor : CRT monitor
Been using this desktop since : July ke August 2006

Kaedah (tiru Carn punye blog) :Hit "Print Scrn" button (sblh F12) > paste kat paint/adobe photoshop)

Nak tengok desktop :
1. Pn. Imah
2. Best Buddy
3. En. Bobby (kalau dah ade masa buat la yek)

Tell em' that u already tag them..pastu suh bagitau korang bila diaorg dah buat. (tiru blog Carn lagik...)

TAGGED: 6 WEIRD THINGS ABOUT ME

I've been tagged by Imah.

RULES: People who are tagged should write a blog post of 6 weird things about them as well as state this rule clearly. In the end, you need to choose 6 people to be tagged and list their names. Don't forget to leave a comment that says 'you are tagged' in their comments and tell them to read your blog.... (sorry Imah, aku pun ciplak RULES ni dari blog kau)

#1

I have this weird phobia of matchbox / matches which up till today i dont know why I have it. Normally, i'd try my best not to touch or use the matches. Macam geli giler gitu. Kalau terpegang atau terpaksa gak gunakan, aku akan basuh tangan kalah orang yang ade OCD (obsessive compulsive disorder). i think i'm the only one who has it kot, couldn't find the scientific name for it. Tapi scientific name for 'phobia of chopstick' ade la pulak..

p/s: Try check this website out http://phobialist.com. You'll find all sorts of phobia names. Can you believe there is such thing as "Fear of peanut butter sticking to the roof of the mouth" (scientifically called Arachibutyrophobia)? And do you know that Hippopotomonstrosesquippedaliophobia is the name for those who have fear of long words. Nama pun dah panjang. Imagine how the person who suffer this phobia nak sebut nama tu..kesian!

#2
Selalu laga gigi bila tido malam. Aku tak tau la camne, sebab selalunya bila berlaga tu memang aku tak sedar. Kata orang, gigi si pelaga ni akan berlaga lagi kuat bila orang tu tengah stress. Benda ni memang dah ada kat aku dari kecik lagi and sampai sekarang tak jumpa lagi cure dia.

#3
Will sleep without taking out my disposable contact lense whenever i'm too tired, too lazy or forgot to buy the solution.

#4

Yang ni aku tak tau la pelik ke tak. Aku rasa biasa jek tapi Cik Nani kata pelik sebab aku suka makan buah especially buah limau, oren atau tomato dengan asam boi.

#5

Suka gosok gigi. Tiap kali lepas makan (tak kiralah makan ape pun) mesti gosok gigi. Tiap kali bangun tido tak kira pagi petang siang malam, tido kejap ke tido lama mesti gosok gigi. Kalau tak aku mesti rasa tak selesa. Siap ada standby berus and ubat gigi kat opis.

#6
Tiap kali makan kena ada lauk ayam. Walaupun beribu pinggan lauk dihidang atas meja tapi kalau takde lauk ayam aku rasa macam takde selera, tak complete & serupa macam tak makan.

Next Tag Victim: Ainie, Carn, Jen, Cik Nanie & En. Bobby

SEMBANG AL-NGARUTS

Seminggu sejak aku implement procedure baru yang En Otai kena buat 2 kali sehari, dia tak penah datang awal or ada kat opis. Meaning, daily checklist yang dia kena isi before 8.45am tu memang orang lain yang kena cover.

Isnin

Emergency Leave (Reason: Sedara kawin. Tak munasabah betul sedara nak kawin tak tau date awal2)

Selasa

Masuk lambat sebab amik ubat kat hospital

Rabu

MC

Khamis & Jumaat

Compassionate Leave (kakak mati)

Ari ni aku memang panas ati betul! Sampai bila tah orang lain nak menjawab keje dia yang tak semenggah tu. tensen! tensen!

Sat tadi aku nak tergelak tengok meja Rahman berkecah maut. HaH! Amek kau! Selama ni meja aku & Tina je yang serabai dot dot..sekarang bila dah buat task reshuffle baru tau, lagi2 bila otai takde, dia lak kena memangku keje En. Otai yang budiman.


LET IT OUT..YEAH!!

Tak sabar rasanye nak tunggu weekend. Apsal tah minggu ni macam minggu kepala otak aku berasap.

Dapat melalak kat redbox best gak.

Tak pun tengok movie antu yang tengah bersepah kat panggung sekarang ni.
Waktu orang menjerit sakan time suspen tu aku join la sekaki. Orang jerit seram, aku plak jerit lepas geram...

CARIK KEJE BARU?!!

Tadi masa scan keje2 yang suitable untuk Cik Nanie, sempat gak curi2 pandang kot-kot ade yang sesuai untuk aku. Rasa macam nak berhijrah ke Penang plak lepas ni. Kalau Tina jadik pindah, ikut dia merantau pi Lahat Datu pun cara gak. Ntah la, gile keharuk ape ntah aku minggu ni. Tak ingat aku masih dalam bond lagi. Tapi kalau offer bagus, bayar jelah dari maintain stuck kat underground tunnel ni.

Anyway, lately ada macam-macam yang berenang dalam otak aku. Mimpi pun ngarut2 jek. Ade ke mimpi katak masuk dalam PDA pastu rupanye katak tu adalah seekor cicak yang berkulit mcm buaya. This weird animal INSIDE MY PDA! logik tak logik la...Eh, sat ni aku baru terpikir. Aku rasa mimpi ni nak bagitau something yang aku dah tau. That I'm not what exactly as people sees me. There's this other side of me. Ye la tu kot. Orang tengok aku macam katak tapi aku sebenarnya adalah cicak bertopengkan kulit buaya. Muahahah!

Arghh...ape nak kisah. bukan ke semua ni dah terbiasa. I'm experiencing one of the year's low down cranky days caused by my so-called career. Nanti-nanti ok balik kot. Masa tu semangat melambung2, pastu turun skit n naik balik. Sebijik macam pasaran saham.

Talking about saham, orang2 kat opis tengah sibuk join this investment scheme. Macam best je return dia, teringin gak nak join. Tapi each time diajak dengar maleh pulak nak gi. Seriously, the return is damn attractive weh. (Aci tak kalau blasah je masuk tapi skip bab-bab dengar briefing ni?)

KES JEJAK KASIH

Oh ye, ari tu aku jumpa balik kawan lama. Lama dah aku carik mamat ni. Sejak dia break dengan member aku, terus ilang menyepi.

Last skali aku jumpa tahun 2002 masa tu siap banyak 'cover' lagi sampai mama & ayah ingat dia dah nak kawen n soh aku ikut jejak langkah dia.

Tau tau tahun ni aku boleh terjumpa balik dengan dia. Itu pun by accident. Dekat je rupanye ingatkan dah merantau ke Italy ke Maghribi ke. Yang aku ni puas la mencari bagai nak giler. Memang tak pass lagi nak jadik P.I kalau camni, nak carik sorang kawan yang ilang pun makan masa bertahun tak jumpa. Kalau buat bisnes penyiasat persendirian sure bungkus punye.

Nak dijadikan filem, rupanye we all puas cari each other, tapi camne nak jumpa memasing tukar nombor baru. Anyway, aku hepi gak ar jumpa dia ni balik. At least bole menambahkan list 'yang terlibat' from side aku nanti...

Sampai sekarang aku still memikir nak buat kat mana..tapi yang penting kena pilih sape undangannye dulu. So far, aku punye memang ciput abis. Dapat 3,4 orang dari sini pun kira okla. Ahh, tu sume lama lagi storynye. Ape pun tak arrange.

Handle one thing at a time first. Yang penting nak gi Bali dulu. Dapat buat aromatheraphy massage..mesti best giler!

Bila la dapat gi ni..

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